How long has it been...

How long has it been since... I last updated my friendster account?

...Probably more than two weeks by now, I haven't even bothered opening it since the last time. I can't blame anybody for saying that I'm such a lazy girl not to open my account, and what more, not even replying to all the comments given to me by my friends... I am quite busy nowadays with thinking how much I want to escape the evil grasps of friendster, I'm not addicted to it, it is simply with regards to the fact that I hate a lot of people whenever I check my friendster account, I feel envious that she would leave a message to them and not to me, or they'll be talking and updating each other there yet no matter how much I try to join in they won't even fill me in...

How long has it been since... I last properly signed in on my yahoo messenger?

...Well, I am always online and is always checking my yahoo mail, but somehow, having people buzz me or pop me just so they could talk to me irritates me. It's a hustle on how I must entertain them when it was their fault that they are talking to me in the first place. Also, I didn't like the idea of having to talk to people even if my status clearly states that I'm busy, I only signed because I am waiting for someone or I need to be informed about something... you get the idea! I don't like talking to people who only force their selves to talk to me, come on! isn't that quite rude? and anyway, there are even some whom I call my BESTFRIEND ignoring me happily, good for that person, right?

How long has it been since... I last updated my fanfiction stories?

...Well, I just updated one last night... I was a bit guilty because the last time I updated that was way back in June or July of 2007, so it's already January of 2008! Can you believe how stupid I was to delay it for too long? Oh well, I am an impulsive writer as I have always claimed, I won't be satisfied with well-written works, I want to write what I feel and what I have seen! I want people to feel the reality that I write in my works despite always writing fantasy stuffs!

How long has it been since... I posted anything on my blogs?

...There isn't really much to say here, because I was practically thirsty for a lay-out that fits my image! Okay, nothing will ever fit, but what I want to say is that I really wanted to have something that I could present as me, something that whenever people would check it out, they would say, okay Katleya owns this, right? I mean, I want something to be proud of! Anyway, that's a different story!

How long has it been since... I was last depressed?

...This is an everyday thing, so I won't deny that just last Friday I was depressed over something, and even now something is bothering me to the point that I update my blog! CAn you believe that?!? Nah? Okay, good! :D But seriously, something really bugged me when I came home last Friday but generally, it's all good now, so I'm quite happy and excited of what God has prepared for me!

How long has it been since... I cried for myself?

...Lately, or I'm not sure when, tears that I shed were no longer for me... they were always for other people, I feel their pain, I feel their suffering to the point that I cry and pity them without being disrespectful. I am sad whenever I see people suffering, I hate the face of anguish and despair, I love watching people smile and relax, laugh and enjoy the beauty of the world... so whenever I watch news and heard of an untimely and cruel death, tears of sadness comes out, even if it's not for me, I know that I cried for them.

How long has it been since... I told my friends of everything I am keeping inside of me?

...The possibility of fully opening up is really low, my trust for others have greatly sunk, I'm not sure anymore on how to extend my hand to them, but I know! If they extend their hands to me, I may be able to say something... something real and something deep in my heart.