I've attended a lot of camps before. If you've seen some of my old posts, I had a lot with Youth for Christ. When I decided to pursue Christianity and became Born Again, I became active in the ministry of discipleship and some other random church ministry like tech, ushering, kids church, etc. but never really coming to the point of attending a camp. The first youth camp was for the leaders (which I am qualified) but I didn't go because I was just starting as a young professional and that was 2 years ago.
Fast forward to reality, here I am, invited to attend the youth camp that is open for all students/youth and I've signed up as part of the staff team. I've never been so excited! I've long missed that position of being strategic in everything that's why I can't help but feel super happy about the whole thing. Weeks passed and I'm surprisingly not part of the strategic team --turns out that it's for ministry heads which I'm not. As I've mentioned earlier, I'm not actively part of a church ministry, I'm more into discipleship but that didn't dissuade me. I still wanted to go and just support.
A week before the camp, our company announced that we'll be having our bi-yearly meeting exactly on the middle of the camp. I have obligations toward that event because it's handled specifically by our department. So when I asked our pastor if I can leave and go back, he talked to me and discouraged me to go for the simple reason that it's too risky to travel here and to and honestly, I felt my heart fell apart that time.
I prayed and argued with God and when I came to a point of surrender, I let go. I have nothing else but God and youth camp isn't the only way God will use me to bless other people. At the moment of surrender, I cried and just asked God for His will to be done and not mine.
Going back to work is a killer because of the pain you feel! I want to be there but I can't but anyway, I had a special moment with my officemate that day. I really appreciated what she did and I can't help but feel more loved and thankful even if it's so painful.
Exactly an hour before 12 midnight (the day of the camp), my officemate texted me that the meeting was moved and that I can join the camp! A lot of things happened afterwards and God has just been amazing! I can't help but dedicate this blog site to Him once again because He is and always will be the reason why I'll talk, I'll listen and live.
The camp was awesome but I'll be honest here, it wasn't awesome because of the activities or the sessions since I hardly participated in either, the best part for me is the quiet time. Sitting under a tree, looking at the majestic view and worshiping God. Singing songs and letting my heart dance for joy in His presence. I'll trade a million years just to have that special moment with God again and I'm forever changed because of His amazing love for me. <3
